week 35

It’s been a while since you’ve heard from me about my pregnancy. I’ve finally stopped procrastinating and let David take some belly pictures. Now, that’s one thing off my to-do list. : )

I am in my 35th week this week and I am getting more and more anxious as it gets closer to the due date. These days, I am simply amazed by my ever-growing belly. I remember that first time when I looked down and all I can see is the huge belly — the feeling was beyond words.

We are going to have a baby by the end of summer! The reality of it hits me suddenly, as exciting as it sounds, it scares me at the same time. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be ready, everything from the practical (buying all the baby’s stuff) to the more cerebral and emotional aspects. I worry so much about almost everything even though I try not to read and remember all the scary information that are all over the internet. Will the baby be healthy? Will I have a smooth, complication-free delivery? How much is the delivery REALLY going to hurt? What about postpartum depression? And most importantly, will I be a good mother?

The questions and worries are endless, although my doctor says that it’s normal. “Pregnancy can turn even the most rational woman into a paranoid.” she said. So I am blaming it on the hormones, or perhaps the placenta which is where my brain seems to be located now. I guess that also explains why I am so forgetful these days. I’ve lost count on how many times I forgot the keys and locked myself out of the house.

Alrighty then, take a deep breath, one day, one moment at a time. Everything will be just fine.
I hope.


As for the baby’s gender. Here’s a hint.

It’s a boy!
The baby moves a lot, and that comforts me a little by knowing that he is strong and active. : )

love,
Ai Ling